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Born of Chaos
04:23
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I’ve been waiting for this moment to arrive
And I’ve been watching you with my objective eye
Waiting for a change to come
And I’ve been waiting for hurt feelings to subside
Feelings black and blue, like bruises on the inside
Waiting for a change to come
And it came, it came
A part of me never thought it would
But I kept the faith, and it came
And how I love your name
To say it each and every day
Now I’ve been repaid, cause it came
All the stories that the people will relay
Are of endless times it didn’t happen this way
They say, people never Change Won’t Come
But it came, it came
A part of me never thought it would
But I kept the faith, and it came
And how I love your name
To say it each and every day
Now I’ve been repaid, cause it came
Oh my anger is a fire in the trees
And your love it is the rain
Yes my anger is a fire in the trees
And your love is like the rain
The deepest truth’s I love you as you are
born of chaos, you’re the shining star
A miracle to me you are
And it came, it came
A part of me never thought it would
But I kept the faith, and it came
And how I love your name
To say it each and every day
Now I’ve been repaid, cause it came
And it came, it came
A part of me never thought it would
But I kept the faith, and it came
And how I love your name
To say it each and every day
Now I’ve been repaid, cause it came
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2. |
Driven Just to Roam
05:43
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Mama thinks I’m crazy, mama Mama thinks I’m mad
She doesn’t understand the reasons that I’ve always had
Mama thinks I’m crazy mama Mama thinks I’m mad
She doesn’t understand me and you know, she never has
Oh I know she loves me even though she knows I’m mad
But every time I trot around the globe it makes her sad
Daddy was a sailor and you know she should have known
That just like him her children would be driven just to roam
Gotta go as far as the wind will take me
I’ve gotta go as far as that old wind will take me
My sister is a fairy, yes and me, I am a witch
But when we go out in our capes you can’t tell which is which
Oh l like my bare feet to be stampin’ in the mud
And soil from all over this earth feels good to my blood
Gotta go as far as the wind will take me
I’ve gotta go as far as that old wind will take me
No I won’t apologize for being what I am
And I don’t care if anybody ever understands
I was born to wander, oh I feel it in my heart
Let go of me, I beg of you, of this I want no part
Mama thinks I’m crazy mama Mama thinks I’m mad
She doesn’t understand the reasons that I’ve always had
Mama drives me crazy mama Mama drives me mad
Let go of me, I beg of you, I simply won’t be had
Gotta go as far as the wind will take me
I’ve gotta go as far as that old wind will take me
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3. |
Doesn't Make Sense
03:26
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You make me wish my heart were black like yours
Black as a moonless night in pouring rain
Black as the deepest of the ocean’s depths
I always knew that you would bring me pain
But my heart’s open as a summer’s breeze
I have my youth and my stupidity
I wouldn’t trade them for the very world,
And yet for you I would trade anything
Oh it doesn’t make sense, it doesn’t make sense
No it doesn’t make sense, it doesn’t make sense
You make me wish my heart were black like yours
So I might come to be some match for you
You lie with pleasure and I lap it up
But I’m not stupid oh I see through you
You treat me mean when you don’t like yourself
You know I don’t deserve those lies you tell
And still I let you call yourself my man
I wanna leave but I don’t think I can
Oh it doesn’t make sense, it doesn’t make sense
Why I love you so much, you know it doesn’t make sense
Oh I stay and I stay, and it doesn’t make sense
And I let you get away with it, it doesn’t make sense
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4. |
Forever, Please
04:34
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Yellow moon on the rise
And the desert in your eyes
Cadillac against the plane
Shooting stars through the window pane
Make it last
Forever
Please
Feels like Bonnie and Clyde
Goin’ on our last ride
We both know this is the way
Oh but no one wants to say, so just
Make it last
Forever
Please
You can feel the nearing end
Seeping into your skin
And you want to make it last
Try to sip away the time
Like a velvet glass of wine
But its always
gone too fast
On a stretch of open road
You and I could feel so close
And I held your leathered hand
Tried to save the moment and, just
Make it last
Forever
Please
You can see the waning tide
In the corners of your eyes
And you want to make it stay
But to enjoy the moonlit night
You must forget the coming time
When we’ll go our
separate ways
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I’m tired of watching you run
I’m tired of watching you run away
Tired of watching you run
I’m tired of watching you run away
Problems will come as they come
Problems will come then they’ll go away
Problems will come as they come
And I’m tired of watching you run away
You can say you weren’t driving, if that’s how you feel
But I see you baby, your hands are on the wheel
And you can say you weren’t running, if that’s what you want
But your feet sure were racing each other to the front
And you can say you weren’t leaving when you left me alone
But I remember being the only one at home
And you can say it didn’t happen, like you weren’t there
But I saw you baby you were acting like you didn’t care
About me
Not everything can be fun
You can’t always go for the easy way
Not everything can be fun
And I’m tired of watching you run away
If you sit at the table for long enough honey
Eventually you’re gonna have to show me your money
If you keep seeing my face and raising your bets
You might want to wonder what I’m thinking in my head
Cause I won’t be persuaded that this is just a game
Because I’ve seen it in your eyes that you and I are the same
So if you’re still at the table, and you’ve thrown in your heart
You’re gonna have to show me your fuckin cards
Show me your fuckin cards.
Come on over here, I want to show you my beating heart
Show you my beating heart, I wear it on my sleeve.
Come on over here, I want to show you my beating heart
Show you my beating heart. Are you too scared to see it?
Oh I’ve been holding it together for far too long
Together
I’ve been holding it together for far too long
Together, oh
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6. |
Solid Ground
04:44
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Well the summer’s gone and so are you
And there is nothing more that I can do
Gonna turn around and face the wind
Try and make my soul come home again
(Bring it on home, I am alone)
Oh my heart like the fallin’ maple leaves
With you I’m always on my knees
Oh gravity ‘gon pull me down
I’m aching for some solid ground
Have we waited too long
Have we waited too long
Have we waited too long
To change
Is it too sad a song
Is the letter too long
Have we waited too long
To change
Oh I can’t hold on for all the letting go
Heaven knows we’ve still got dreams unsewn
But I can’t let go for all the holding on
So I’ll wait for you like I wait for dawn
(All night long)
Oh my heart like the fallin’ maple leaves
With you I’m always on my knees
Oh gravity ‘gon pull me down
I’m aching for some solid ground
Have we waited too long
Have we waited too long
Have we waited too long
To change
Is it too sad a song
Is the letter too long
Have we waited too long
To change
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7. |
Solid Ground Echo
02:21
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8. |
Party on the Mountain
03:58
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We used to sleep in the wet grass by accident, accident
We used to stay up all night long on the mountain
Party on the mountain
And summer spent in the river, lazy driftin’
My sweet friend
We knew then we were so set, pass the bowl, friend
Don’t get the pot wet
We would wake the next morning still in the same clothes
And we’d look for our car keys, and drive home
And tell a lie to our parents about where we had been
Sleep it off and do the whole thing all over again
Remember waking up early in the wet dew
Beside you
Whenever we woke up shiverin’ we’d watch the sunrise
On the mountain
Oh now the mountain is different
How I miss you, my sweet friend
But what a gift I’ve been given
I found a lover on the mountain
One day we’ll go back there, together I hope
And I’ll remember my family and the old songs I wrote
Maybe we can sleep outside, underneath the stars,
Only this time with a blanket, and each others arms
You make me feel free and easy
Like the summer, when we were younger.
One day we’ll find a cabin
There’ll be a party on the mountain
There’ll be a party
On the mountain
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Honey Bee
04:32
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I can tell from the way my skin feels that it’s getting burned
I can tell from your face, you think I’m speaking out of turn
I’m so lost in this silly circle, I can’t even see
Until I find in my gaze a lost and lonely honey bee
Do you ever feel like the star in someone else’s play
When single moments seem so dramatic in every single way
Unseen directors are watching, planning, every small detail
Whoever you are, you’re brilliant. But you know me much too well
And just as I feel my mind caught in this round-a-bout
I watch the poor honey bee turn circles on the ground
The burning white concrete is no place for honey bees
Looking at him, I feel so guilty, cause I think he’s there just for me
To see
Do you ever feel like your life is written like a book
Complete with allusions, symbols, signs and catchy hooks
I wonder who knows me well enough to write my heart
Maybe only my honey bee has been with me from the start
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10. |
It Isn't About You
04:32
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I am so tired of questions and fools
Of Language and Mirrors
And minding the rules
Turns out I’m only an artist inside
And I need some release but there’s
Nowhere to hide in this
Room without walls
Skeleton, no closet
If only I could just let go of this tightening
Place in my chest
I need rest, though I’m rested
There’s space everywhere, but my space lies
Untested.
And I’m breaking my own heart
By speaking this truth:
It isn’t about you.
It isn’t about you!
And why must you always flip flop it that way?
You read me back my own story, as if I’ve nothing to say
And you’ve changed all the points
And you star in my play
And I am so tired
Of this life that I wished for
I’m loving your back, as you
Walk out the door
And I’m writing this song and it’s
Brilliant. Dazzling!
To be played for no one, cause who is it for?
It’s for me, and goddammit, I’m gonna write more of ‘em
More songs for no one but me and the wind
And the sky and the ocean can listen if they wish to
Cause they will keep quiet, like my only friends
And I’m breaking my own heart
And throwing out pieces that I never wanted
And that I can’t keep and I know that you see me
Sifting through the diamonds of broken glass,
Cutting me, setting me free
It isn’t about you
It isn’t about you, as much as I
Wanted it always to be
And it’s great that it’s my fault
I did it. I did it!
I’m never the victim, just stupid and free
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11. |
My Father's Daughter
04:47
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Time is passing strangely in this little house of glass
And we’re dead upon the water, like a ship without a mast
As a wise man with a mustache once explained to us with math
All the good times pass so quickly, while the hard times seem to last
And I have found this to be true
Especially, my dear, with you.
Like two fishies out of water, or two birdies stuck on land
We are tethered to each other, confused lovers, hand in hand
Though we try to use our mirrored pasts to help us understand
The other one,
The reflection’s always backwards, and compassion comes undone
‘Cause I’m my father’s daughter and he’s his daddy’s son.
How the space between us changes though we’re standing oh so still
I am sure that you still love me, but I’m also sure you will still go away,
Perhaps today. And I will wish, for you to stay.
Like two bandits who are running with the stolen gold in hand
I’m afraid to be your woman, you’re afraid to be my man
We are tethered to each other, like two thieves we understand
That as we run,
There’s a certain trap before us, like a warmly loaded gun,
‘Cause I’m my father’s daughter, and you’re your daddy’s son.
When I get to feeling awful about the way we stand
In a flight of healing memory I see us there, hand in hand
Crying quietly together, as the temple burned on land
Paying respect to our fathers, who we’ll never see again.
And that was love, true as can be.
Me holding you, you holding me.
Like two narcissistic children we are prone to fight and yell
And all the things that make this heaven, are the same ones that make it hell
It’s a paradox of opposites attracting, just for fun,
But we fell in love, and now it’s done.
We fell in love,
‘Cause I’m my father’s daughter and he’s his daddy’s son.
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Kristen Rae Bowden Charlottesville, Virginia
The right kind of friction creates glorious sparks. Coursing within the heart and mind of singer-songwriter Kristen Rae Bowden is a beautiful turmoil of tenderness and willfulness. It’s a paradoxical sentiment also evident in her artistic sensibilities. In her upcoming debut, Language and Mirrors, she fluidly, and authentically, inhabits earthy Americana and majestic orchestral rock. ... more
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